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The Colour of My Sky

a story about a girl called eve




Born in Latvia, raised in Sweden, a European citizen and a traveler of the world. Adventurous, intelligent, artistic, passionate, caring, elitist, stubborn and unforgiving. Loves films and art; would die without music. Has found her soulmate, but always loves to find another good friend.


My soul does not have its roots in this world. I am a woman without a home, or, rather, my home is not a place; it is a person. They call me Eve and I am fond of this name for its simplicity and truthfulness, as well as for its biblical history and symbolic nature. Many of the subconscious associations can be applied to my personality, probably in an even greater measure than I would like to admit.

My fingers feel naked without a pen. I have been holding it for many years now and we have developed a relationship, the pen and I, for better and for worse. “The words are my children and I am their goddess,” I sometimes say. They might fear me, they might despise me and they might even hate me – but sooner or later they will return to me, crawling and begging for me to make use of them. And I am always there to love them.

I am the psychotic dreamer, delusional and torn between the light and the dark, a shadow that creates a bridge between both, belonging to everyone and to no one. I see the world as it is and as it has never existed, accepting and denying reality all at once. Yes, it is all about paradoxes and the power they hold. Our world has been shaped out of paradoxes and their twisted, compelling truth. Nothing is as simple and as downright confusing as my outlook on life, universe and everything – perhaps that is the reason I take pleasure in the subtle intelligence of eastern philosophies; they do not question my logic.

The written word is all about the images it creates in the mind of the reader. In that case my self portrait is a psychedelic painting with many brave and equally weak strokes and with a distinct emphasis on the dark. It should be a fascinating place, this realm of mine, and equally frightening, filled with many uncontrollable elements. It is the eye of a storm with the hurricane and the lightning raging all around it; and it is the calmest place in the universe, with only the slightest breeze to touch the blades of grass – it is no more than a sigh, no more than a whisper of beauty and love. My words can be found in the powerful depths of music; that is where their meaning is heightened and transformed into something that goes beyond my weak human understanding. That is where they gain a life of their own and I can do nothing but watch them take off into the unknown, filled with a naïve conviction that becomes endearing and untouchable in the eyes of the world.

Is this poetry or is this prose? I am not the expert of the written word, nor am I an expert of the deep and dark abyss that is my mind. Yet I know that this is a self portrait of me and of what I really am, if only it is the first peel of the onion shell.

When your soul is not of this world, neither are your words.


"Caution". Is that like general caution? As in "Life - Caution!" Life should carry a big yellow caution sticker. It's certain to kill you sooner or later.
- April, The Longest Journey.


Sorted as a Slytherin at hogwarts_elite and hogwartsishome.
Where do you belong?

Stamped as Albus Dumbledore && Gellert Grindelwald at hh_stamping.


INTJ - "Mastermind". Introverted intellectual with a preference for finding certainty. A builder of systems and the applier of theoretical models. 2.1% of total population.
Free Jung Word Choice Test (similar to MBTI)
personality tests by similarminds.com
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